Sunday, September 13, 2020

9/13/2020

 I had my first suicidal thoughts the other day. 

I've been sad before. I've been so very sad. 

But I never had the feeling of not wanting to exist before.

I never really understood wanting to not exist. 

That is, until I lost you.

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