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The last time I saw you

I liked the way you walked.

Is that weird? 

You held yourself with a humbling confidence.

I was jealous of your clothes constantly caressing your body.

You were the most attractive in the shower though.

Not just because you were naked,

water running down your skin making you glow,

your hair somehow always in a perfect swoop

no matter how you touched it.

You were vulnerable. 

You were relaxed. 

I was looking at such a raw private moment

of who you really were.

Your laugh could end wars.

It could dance through the valleys and hills 

and you would always catch me dancing to it. 

Your eyes were dark and deep,

they held your entire soul. 

I never knew I could love such an abyss. 

When I was laying bare on the bed 

And you looked at me with such hunger, 

I craved you. 

You’re eyes became wild and amazed,

Like I was the most beautiful feast

After being lost in the desert. 

And when you told me you loved me

I felt peace. 

I could see all of our past lives together 

And every moment we fell in love. 





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