Sunday, August 30, 2020

1:02 AM

 I was triggered in a bar tonight. I heard that song that reminded me of you while I was on a date and I was fighting back tears as he told me how he grew up Roman Catholic. His voice became distorted and muffled and all I could hear was the song and how much I missed you and how sad I was. I blacked out and I couldn't pay attention to what he was saying and the words I did speak didn't make sense.  But I held back the tears, the song ended. The anxiety stayed for a while but then I had a really nice time. I will move on. I have to move on. 

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