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Disappoint me

If I published every bad thing you said behind my back would you apologize?
If I put you on blast and showed who you really are, would you defend yourself or accept your fate?


Disappoint me.
Do what everyone else does.
Talk shit about me behind my back.
Take advantage of me. Take advantage of the love I have to give.
Be the disappointment in my heart when I wake up and the sun has risen again for a new day.
Disappoint me like everyone else that has walked into my life and taken what they needed.



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